For Holy Week I wrote some meditations from the perspective of those who were there. Every day I will release a new one and I hope you are all blessed by them and led to the foot of the cross. Earlier this month I wrote from the perspective of Mary, if you missed it you can find it here https://findinggodintheeveryday.com/2022/03/07/my-son-is-yours/

Dear friend

Have you ever dropped the ball?  Have you ever felt you disappointed someone you loved dearly?  I felt the whole world collapse around me one day.  I had promised to be faithful to stand by His side and then in a moment of panic I caved.  The world was stronger than I was.  I was surrounded by the ugliness of a mob, calling for the blood of my friend, and while I tried to be strong, to be His support I found that He was the strong one and that I wasn’t. 

Please do not let those moments of weakness hold you back.  It was at that moment that I realized that I was walking with God, but I wasn’t God.  God already knew I would fall, He himself predicted it but my pride denied it.  Sometimes when we betray a friend, we feel like we can never go back to where we were.  But I’m here to tell you that there is always hope.  Dear friend, my friend forgave me.  We are all forgivable.  Even before I failed, He knew it, warned me and loved me anyway.  That very night He washed my feet.  He fed me and entrusted to me the feeding of others.  Yet I failed.

Don’t focus on the failed moments of our lives.  That’s where most of us want to live.  When we sit in our failure, we can miss the whole meaning of redemption. When I look at the cross, I see that He knew and loving me still He made a way back for me.  It is up to me to take up this very generous offer of love poured out.  The crime isn’t in failing.  The true crime is letting His sacrifice for me sit there waiting on a cross.  My dear friend, when I look at the cross, I see an infinite number of reasons for me to return to Him.  I see an infinite number of expressions of love.  This is what His love did for me.  What do I return to that love?  I return to it even though I have fallen, even if it is an infinite number of times.  It is that love that calls me and paying the price sets me free to come to Him.

Be blessed and encouraged,